LaLoba Spirit's Sweetgrass Lodge Dedication Page |
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LaLoba (The Wolf Woman) Spirit began the ascent into my consciousness through the Wolf and during times of distress. Like many women, I lost my voice when I was a small child, through abuse and social/cultural programming. Unfortunately, we live in a patriarchical society where women's strength and "knowing" has been devalued, misunderstood and feared. As a small girl, I learned from society and from the female role-models in my life, that being female meant violation, powerlessness and inferiority. I despised my gender because my spirit was strong and femininity meant "playing weak and small" to survive. My immature mind did not know how to rebel except to become a tomboy. I loved the freedom that boys took for granted. I had very little respect for what femininity meant and I wanted nothing to do with the confinement and inferiority that was connected. Thus, I had internalized the disrespect and dishonoring of women. This internal conflict caused me to make very distructive choices that ended in addiction and an abusive marriage. I have had to walk through the darkness and embrace everything I had become before I was able to discover the truth. For me, this meant leaving my marriage, and removing substances from my life. The truth, for me, began seeping into my consciousness through the wolf. During an especally difficult time in my life a black Wolf came to my home and slept on my porch. I was told later that the Wolf was there to protect me. Since that time, I have had the Wolf come to me in my dreams during difficult times in my life. The Wolf is my protector and my guide. I have been on a path of recovery and healing for the past six years. I now understand that femininity means many things and that my internalized dishonoring of women was pushed into my pysche by a fear-based culture. I now understand women to be strength, empowerment, healing, intuition, honor, and dignity. Although I stand proudly in my femininity, I also honor the masculinity. I do not believe in reverse-discrimination. Creator provides feminine and masculine as both having a purpose. I honor both and I challenge men and women to break away from the constrictions of gender-stereotyping. We are human beings with a wide range of feminine and masculine traits. Balance the energies. Healing our world begins with healing ourselves. LaLoba (The Wolf Woman) comes from the book Women Who Run With The Wolves, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. To read an excellent article go to the following: |
Written by Dr. Thomas Pinkson....Shaman, psychologist, consultant, teacher, |
